a new begining that i hope nt to end

a brand new day for this blog

2011-10-25T21:20:00.000-07:00

Hey ho! its been a long time!!

1stly, a brand new me i guess... love life nothing to talk about.. well... as for now la!

okay la for now, im working at BLUEWAVES FITNESS for nealy 6 month and currently doing HR cum RECEPT job.. stressful but well gotta hide the stress felling face a side lor. wat more can i ask for ryte? I miss a lot of things in life... but 1 thing for sure! I went BALI already! woohoo! hahahahaha!!! awesome shit!!

ok i seriously duno what to blog for now... all i can say is

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8XNaPX6MKlU&ob=av2e

im sucked!!!

2011-02-22T09:47:00.000-08:00

YES baby! im having bangs!
YES baby! im updating my bloggy!
YES baby! here i am!

well firstly... its a repeat year! repeat indeed!
i dun get it why it kept repeating... i aint learning!! pfft!!

THIS IS THE PEOPLE WHO IM RELYING NOW...
surprisingly...
im sucks at being a best friend... OMG! now i know wher it went wrong! its me!! i dun know how to be a best friend!

fucked!!! pls make me drunk n forget what happen!!!

SERIOUSLY! I MISS HER!!!

aku wanita biasa!

2010-11-09T03:07:00.000-08:00

sesungguh nye aku hanya wanita biasa...
tkde lebih dan mungkin ade kekurangan seperti yg lain..
(i am jus a normal woman)

in life, i smile n i cry...
i gain n i looses...
i trip n fall....

wats not normal bout that...

i know fer now 1 thing fer sure...
im surrounded by hypocrite galfrens which i've decided to let go of dem...

i thank people hu hv been fake towards me...
making me realise hu they r actually...
n i thanks NURAZILLA MAZLAN n FEEDA!!
they indeed a fren! <3>

happy bthday

2010-10-13T05:15:00.003-07:00

TO THIS BOY HERE,
U HAVE BEEN A GREAT BOYFREN! UR LOVE IS GROWING STRONGER..
15TH MONTHSARY... I LOVE U!

TO U ALL WHO WERE OUT THERE, TRYING TO MAKE MY BDAY A GREAT ONE!
I LOVE U ALL!!

ditry ROCKERS!

2010-09-26T04:05:00.001-07:00

GREAT PEOPLE MAKE MY LIFE A MEMORABLE ONE!
seriously this gal up here is one crazy bitch!
didnt expect an old fren will meet up again n we go crazy all over...
i feel like time has rewind!
ouhhhh!! great!!
**gal, we shall ketok2 botol again yar? heee =)

David Guetta feat Kid Cudi - Memories (Official videoclip)

2010-08-30T00:12:00.000-07:00

jus cant wait to go back to dat dancefloor i wanna have d best memories wit my waka waka clan!!
<3 <3 <3

to all u out there;

LET PARTAY!!!

Jason Mraz -Life Is Wonderful

2010-08-23T11:12:00.000-07:00

t takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a storie
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la

It takes a night to make it done
And it takes a day to make you young brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a lost before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to show you care
It takes a hole to see a mountain

Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love
Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love

FUCK u

2010-08-21T21:50:00.001-07:00

THIS MIDDLE FINGER IS TO SHOW U A BIG THANKIU...
FANG!!!

imagine goin to werk @ 9.30am n realise schedule hv been chg to 1pm..
how awesome!!
imagine coming @ werk @ 9.30am,
did some stock werk n punch card was chg to 10.30am..
imagine to b @ ur werkplc carpark @ 9.25am,
n recieved a phone call @ 9.26am saying shift was chg to 1pm..
HOW FREAKING AWESOME!!!

fucking stuckup!!

a moment i wudnt wanna ferget

2010-08-20T11:00:00.000-07:00

I IS NUR BITCHIFUL SYIDAH!

& i is awesome; i dun nid u! =)

okay... wait ah.. today is the 21st august...

its like 9days pass my anniversary...

i wanted to post sumthing so it cud remind mi of d happy moment wit my bby..

last month..

we celebrated anniversary at wild wild wet lar sia...

felt a lil young;but we were like a young couple!

afterall;

AGE IS JUST A NUMBER WAT!!!

Den i had my extention undone...

for now, i had my nail done..

hair trimmed(MCM AHLIAN SIA)

what next ehk??

i was planing on getting sumthing nice fer myself this month;

but FUCK lar..

i screwed my owb life;

paid NEA $400.. ther goes my fav. top at BERSHKA!

Raya ard d corner...

shud i buy a set fer myself? erm...

Fasting month this year,

i FLUNK real bad!!

baek ah syidah!!!

isnt my YEAR huh!! shud might as well jus flunk all the way...

FYI: I LOVE MY BOYFREN! BUT LOVE MY STITCH MORE HAHAHAH!!

ANIWAE;

wanna end this post with a lil sumthing:

behind that thousand smiles fer me...

thers a thousand lies fer me too....

FUCK IT LAR K??

(randomization shit!)

ps: my last week @ ION... i hope it be a forgetful one! =)

random

2010-08-14T02:52:00.000-07:00

I IS BORED!
I IS WANNA GO OUT!
I IS LAZY WANNA GO OUT!
SO HOW NOW?? PFFT!!!

im sick of my life being in such a roller coaster ride.. erm...
wonder if others life like mine?
i wanna people to tell mi exactly wat kind of person i am..
n wat kinda chges they wanna c in mi..
BUT DAMN!! shuddup! cos i knw d 1st thing is my temper! FUCKLA.. my ego is the real mi!

2010-08-14T02:40:00.000-07:00

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there’s a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can’t breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It’s like I’m in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It’s like I’m huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She f—–g hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I’m leaving you
No you ain’t
Come back
We’re running right back
Here we go again
It’s so insane
Cause when it’s going good
It’s going great
I’m Superman
With the wind in his bag
She’s Lois Lane
But when it’s bad
It’s awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who’s that dude
I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her
I’ll never stoop so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you’re with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit ‘em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get ‘em
Now you’re getting f—–g sick
Of looking at ‘em
You swore you’ve never hit ‘em
Never do nothing to hurt ‘em
Now you’re in each other’s face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit ‘em
You push
Pull each other’s hair
Scratch, claw, bit ‘em
Throw ‘em down
Pin ‘em
So lost in the moments
When you’re in ‘em
It’s the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it’s best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don’t know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It’s a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin’ over
But you promised her
Next time you’ll show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that’s why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn’t mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper’s just as bad
As mine is
You’re the same as me
But when it comes to love
You’re just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn’t you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed
I’ll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it’s lies
I’m tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I’m a liar
If she ever tries to f—–g leave again
I’ma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

we speak no americano

2010-08-14T02:27:00.000-07:00

cant stop dancing to this track...
pap pap pap....

i is.....

2010-08-13T06:16:00.001-07:00

i might jus say i love what im doin, but fucked my like at same tym too..
hahaha...
thats wat i gud at i think!

fasting month,so yes past few days i've been busy coping with new life...
last month,busy wit partying...
hahahah
so here's my story!

1: i left PASTAMANIA n i got no pay fer that! FUCKED MY LIFE! hahaha
2: got an easy job as a recept at BODYCLINIC n i left it fer sales... FUCKED MY LIFE!
3: im currently doing sales at BERSHKA n i feel FUCKED UP cos im faked at sales job!

=)
1: i made MAREENI so mad n now MOMOK pissed me off with his words..n my EGO make me leave the frenship i had with dem...
2: i have spend $200 of my boyfie $ to getting drunk last month n boyfie found out.. he's not mad bt.... i feel FUCKED up fer using his cash!!
3: i is so jealous that my galfren is now closer to ADIYAT den myself... i feel FUCKED up as i think im nt gud enuf fer her...but i knw she still love me hahahah...
BFF!!!

=)
lets see... erm...
now i feel more FUCKED up cos 24th i nid to go court!!! n $... court i b!!!

i feel FUCKED up cos i so wanna shop badly but financial is so tight!! FUCK!!!

I IS SO GOOD AT FUCKING UP MY OWN LIFE!!

DEJAVU

2010-08-13T06:14:00.000-07:00

my fav song in BERSHKA!

love d love hate d hate

2010-07-16T01:58:00.000-07:00

i is LOVING my new jacket!
i is having lots of FUN with it!
i is HAPPY with d people i left with!!

and deep down i still feel insecure n u cant see it!

a sad story of mine...

2010-06-29T09:36:00.000-07:00

i hv try not to b childish n start to b a lil matured...
i shud start thinking bout the future.. but.... as i look forward,my past is pulling me back... n it sucks!!
at werk have been sucky too, lately..it reaches at a point where im giving up..haish...

well...
fer sure... im jus looking forward my anniversary with bby...
n i knw 1 thing im aiming fer....
d day he propose!! haish!! bby i nk marry!!

2010-06-24T00:26:00.000-07:00

DEDICATING IT TO MY SPECIAL FREN! nurliyana roslan cos she love this song...
n to my self... haish!

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did..

tired!

2010-06-20T11:36:00.000-07:00

Im at the point wen i talk about it.. tears of anger flow out...
as much as i try to be on the positive side,
its harder to kip it up...
im tired.. i hv come to d extend i cud'nt think a lil more abt it...
today,im too tired to even cry anymore...
im too angry.. n too frustrated..

short n sweet...: FROM LOVING MY JOB,IM HATING IT A BIT MORE EACH DAY!

im STRESS out!

a kid in evry one of us

2010-06-20T01:16:00.000-07:00

hahahahaks..this is random lar..
im so tired.. i dun feel like going to werk either..
haish..its tiring ok...

my all

2010-06-20T00:09:00.000-07:00

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

[Chorus:]
I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

The importance of life!

2010-06-17T08:13:00.000-07:00

THE ONE I LOVE N D 1 I CANT LIVE WITHOUT!

IN LIFE, u need someone to be by ur side to make u a lil stronger...
n trust mi... i have put a fullstop to d chosen 1...
in my life even if i dun have a purfect family by my side... but i hv 2 wonderful person to make mi smile n go thru my up's n down with...
THANKIU!
with sincerity... i love u two!!
nurashidahSAYANGabdulmuhaimin&nurliyana!!1

Baik2sayang!

2010-06-17T00:11:00.001-07:00

i duno how i wud say this now... but im at a point of backing out n giving up, wateva i do seem so on d edge.. haish... YEAH! i live my life with FULL OF DRAMA N EMOTIONS! thats for sure...i dun even knw how to kip someone stay close to mi...
OUH! SYIDAH!! wat a bitch u are!! when u gonna learn to change?? *jgn madang mulut lantang jek boleh?* cummon,im hu im.. like it enjoy it,hate it leave it... get it??
haish.. maybe i am jus temporary... when others are permanent..but i wonder which one is ur priority!...

setting ur priority rite... its unfair wen i set it ryte n others not playing the same music as mi.... gosh.. its sure sucks...
this is wat im gonna do... people plan ahead of tym... n i was left behind... so wat is d story? get over it SYIDAH! sumthing isnt urs, aint meant fer u... huhuhuhuhuh... how sadist!!

im putting u aside this tym fer sure... im focusing on my werk n bby pls,be more matured in choosing life ahead of u...
hope u appreciate n able to show ur appreciation to rite person... (which i guess not mi lar) n may life blossom....

next week im nt sure abt if i shud dance like a superstar,party like a rockstar...
oh well, shall update on that since i lost a bunch of my partyhoppers...
weeeeeeeeeeeee... ok ok! shall stop n make this a short one.. gonna get ready to get my stitches out!! woohooo!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.........

ABDUL MUHAIMIN! im still loving u!!!! hahahaha always love u!

party girls back!!

2010-06-15T11:20:00.001-07:00

nvr felt this gud...
I PARTY HARD,i work hard,i play hard!!

gonna try to be active in this again...
i hope!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
weds come fast!! i LOVE HOUSE!!!

KU CINTA RUMAH!!!

cold love

2010-03-21T03:59:00.001-07:00

ITS OVER....
its over...........

ITS ALL OVER.............

internation you day-no use for a name

2010-03-12T22:25:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry that it took so long
to write this song
but I gave up
You see one million words can't describe
how it feels
to know your love

Where did I go wrong?
I should have told you from the start
that I'm closer then you think
when we're apart
Nothing that I've tried
is as simple as this line

But without you
My life is incomplete
My days are absolutely gray
and so I'll try
Let your heart know for sure
that I have so much more to tell you
every single day

I swear I'm giving up my inside
to the one
that I adored
I know this world is big enough
For you and I
but I'll give you more

I'm coming home today
to wipe the tears right from your eyes
I'm totally enamored by your life
Nothing that I've done
has ever been for one

but without you
my life is incomplete
my days are absolutely gray
and so I'll try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
every single day

My life is incomplete
My rites are absolutely gone
So wake me up
before you leave today
something I need to say
Cause they'll be nothing when you're gone

SEPERATION moment

2010-03-09T00:14:00.000-08:00

BABY..TIS IS MA PROMISE TO U...
I'LL NVR GIVE UP ON U EVEN THOU THIS SEPARATION MEANS HEARTBURN...

i dun get why am i like this...
y cnt i get ma fact ryte...
wat i rili wanted?
n why i can stabilize maself...
why why why...
rili hope this separation with make me find myslf...

GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS n boy?

2010-03-03T13:00:00.000-08:00

Im missing these girls...
somehow 1day we will fall apart,
n forget 1 another... but i believe that the gud tym we had was fun..fun..fun..
those wil b a memories,others dun get to experience..

somehow,i knw...
i may nt b the kind of girl with d looks or d attitude..
i may nt knw how to dress up well...
i may nt b rich or may nt crack up gud jokes..
so.. i fall in d uncool category..
so what?? i jus knw that.. im fun fun fun..
n im glad those hu were my genuine frens r ther ard me..

n likewise...
im happy that even thou i fall in d uncool people...
i have a cool boyfie n a loving one...

ABDUL MUHAIMIN.... I LOVE U ALWAYS.. <3

d moment of HURTs

2010-02-28T08:35:00.000-08:00

CB! CB! CB!
NB! NB! NB!
oh gosh.. all word of vulgarity...

as i post on ma FB: this is us,humans.. wen we r mad we dun care wher we stand.. we jus make it all tumble down.. but den we fil bad n guilty bcos it happens.. forgiveness dun come directly as ego over rule each 1 of us.. n that make a bitch n jerk out of evrybody

i think back..
oh gosh, at times wen i start to throw ma temper,
i wasnt thinkin straight..
oh my, its just me myself n ego..
**LANCANG MULUT!!**
as i scold... shoot shoot shoot... bam bam all came out..
althou i aint not a smart girl,
believe me, ma word are sharp n hurtful..

@most of the tym,
boyfie got it all...
n ma mom..(as im so mad fer all her doin,we shant go to ther.. it hurt!!)

den i stop fer awhile n cry...
once i had a big fite wit boyfie,
ooouhhh boy, it wasnt nice...
its wasnt d mouth only boy..
ma hand were throwin punches n finger were scratchin poor boy..
but aft dat...
it feels like the time stop...
(i shant go to the part wher we make up..)

its isnt me..
its everyone...
the EGO... evryone has their beast side of them..

BUT NOW!!

BBY I MISS U BADLY!!
call me pls!!
hee... i love my boyfie..
he's d greatest..
althou he aint the guy wit the LOOKS..
or the guy wit the CASH..
but he is the guy wit HEARTS..
n FAITHFUL...
importantly.. he TRUST me!!

THE MOVIE

2010-02-27T11:22:00.000-08:00

this one movie u gotta see...
its nice.. with a touch of humour..
slightly predictable(cos i tend to b able to predict wat hpn next which isnt fun)
cool actor n actress...

the main actor as PERCY JACKSON,
is cute!!
very young indeed!!

other then that..
i wanted to c UMA THURMA...
as merdusa!!

watch it @ lido
LIDO2 27/02/2010 11.45pm J15-J16

zie n i went to catch it as we were bored n to catch up some lil tym too..
oh well... as usual d laughter was the main thing that was bein missed..

now i gotta head dwn to bed..
tmlo bby got soccer.. gotta c bby kicking some BALLS!!!

morning after dark random

2010-02-19T00:50:00.000-08:00

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 21 friends including me
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

if someone says 'are you okay', you say?
shooting stars(LMFAO-david rush)

how would you describe yourself?
sexy bitch(AKON-david guetta)

what do you like in a guy/girl?
bad romance(LADY GAGA)

how do you feel today?
FREEZE(TPAIN-chris brown)

what is your life's purpose?
Love story(TAYLOR SWIFT)

what's your motto?
Break your heart(TAIO CRUZ)

what do your friends think of you?
Starstruck(3OH!3-katy perry)

what do your parents think of you?
For your entertainment(ADAM LAMBERT)

what do you think about very often?
Telephone(LADY GAGA-beyonce)

what is 2 + 2?
3(BRITNEY SPEARS)

what do you think of your best friend?
Dance bailailo(KAT DELUNA)

what is your life story?
Empire state of mind(JAY Z-alicia keys)

what do you want to be when you grow up?
all the above(MAINO-tpain)

what do you think when you see the person you like?
Available(AKON)

what will you dance to at your wedding?
TIK TOK(ke$ha)

what will they play at your funeral?
Touch my body(MARIAH CAREY)

what is your hobby/interest?
bOOm boom pow (BLACK EYE PEA)

what is your biggest fear?
Cookie jar(GYM CLASS HEROES)

what is your biggest secret?
lie about us (AVANT-nicole)

what do you want right now?
watcha say (JASON DERULO)

what do you think of your friends?
Obsessed(MARIAH CAREY)

what will you post this as?
morning afte dark(TIMBERLAND-soshy)

wat a beauty!

2010-02-19T00:30:00.000-08:00

SOSHY!!
she's a beauty!!
oh well.. somehow now i tink i shud go fer a drastic chg..
hahaha.. it may not like wat it seems lar...
i don mean tattoo n piercng...
i jus waitin fer stability in my life..n boom... shopping n makeover...

ouuuhhh...CANT WAIT!!

PATRON TEQUILA GIRLS!!

2010-02-18T03:52:00.000-08:00

THAT GALFREN....
she has been ard wen i had ma down years bck..
now she wud breakdown n cry on the podium n in middle of the dancefloor..
i understand how she felt,
but i am in no position to say cos im nt her...
jus wanna let her know that i'll standby her til d end...

lets talk abt d party we had...
althou i had to run around...
i had fun fun fun...

nothing beats partying with these gals!!

SYIKIN-DYRAA-LILLY-SYILA....

im gonna start ma new werk soon...
monday 22nd..
n im gonna start to slow down on ma party til i knw ma schedule n ma werking hours..
haish... im sure gonna miss ma gals n ma life...

HURT TIL IT BLEEDS....

2010-02-10T10:42:00.000-08:00

i dun get it thou,
@ d moment i dun feel love lost...
more like love stuck...
boyfiie make me fil so alive each day...
weneva im down n all, he pick me up...
he shower mi with laughter...
til i dare not say anything to hurt him, cos he's d main one fer me...

but yet,with the story i heard out others,
n pict that dun lie abt their hurtful relationships,
make me pause n think fer them...
i feel them..

its not abt EMO..
im jus stating fact..gal i fil u ther...
i use to fil hurt, n these are things i longed fer years,
love that wudnt hurt...
but aft those pict i saw...
i knw it wudnt lie...n it stated fact how hurt u feel gal...

seriously,
he wasnt meant fer u,
he dun treasure u n he chges mind twice as fast as a speedin bullet..

DEN AGAIN,
tis made me remember how love was hurtful fer me..
back den,i wonder was it even love??
i wasted tears of pain..
wen it was more like i was d onli 1 hu feel it,
not him??
how cud it be??

i cried fer days n weeks,til 1 day i gave up..
the tears aint flowing dwn ma cheek no more..
i gave others a chance,
but it repeats...

oh well....
ISNT IT SUPPOSE TO BE LOVE?
(humming to d tone)
L is fer d way u look at me.
O is fer d onli 1 i see.
V is very very extra ordinary.
E is even more den anyone cud adore it.

but not all love is beautiful...
afterall it take two hand to clap...
2 person to fall in love...

sumhow i believe,
soon everyone wil find their true love..

p.s: IM HATING MY NOSE BLEED NOW!!!

STITCH!!

2010-02-09T14:03:00.000-08:00

Cudnt slip...
since jus now on FB..
oh well... now its tym i guess.. i jus hav to hugs this stitchy n go to bed..
@ 9am gotta wake up..
bby sending to to c doc..
haish!!! so duno wat to do ady... hating the fact that werk suck fer now..
adoii!!! lots of headache issue around...
cnt wait til its all over...

ELEGI SEPI

2010-02-08T23:01:00.000-08:00

Saat mentari beradu
Rembulan pun bertamu
Hatiku menjadi sayu
Dalam kesamaran waktu

Mengapakah rinduku
Masih ada dalam kalbu
Sedangkan cinta itu sudah berlalu

Mungkinkah rasa bersalah
Masih menghimpit jiwa
Kerana terlalu tega
Membuatmu terluka

Dikau yang begitu setia
Tabah hadapi segala
Namun ku menjadi alpa
Kesal akhirnya

Aku pinta kepadamu
Maafkanlah kesilapanku
Aku tahu kau dan aku
Tidak mungkin akan menyatu

Apa yang tertinggal kini
Kesedaran di hati
Yang kan tetap bersemadi
Menjadi elegi sepi

Oh biarlah doa tulusku
Mengiringi jalanmu
Kan menebus khilafku
Terhadapmu

BBY JOM KARAOKE!!!!

WHAT A DAY

2010-02-07T00:29:00.000-08:00

im piss!! im piss....
how come todaY turn out like this...
shit sia!!

its raining...
i cnt go to faidza's wedding,
n i hv to take ma original schedule...
i hate it sak!!!

BBY!!!...
GIMMEE HUGS..
n kiss all the bad things away!!!

DO YOU REMEBER!!

2010-02-06T20:12:00.000-08:00

Do You Remember lyrics

TAKING BACK MY LOVE

2010-02-06T19:46:00.000-08:00

Go ahead just leave, can’t hold you, you’re free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, ’cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt
You think I don’t know you’re out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you’re stone cold, you say it ain’t so,
You already know I’m not attached to material

I’d give it all up but I’m takin’ back my love
I’m takin’ back my love, I’m takin’ back my love
I’ve given you too much but I’m takin’ back my love
I’m takin’ back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love..

What did I do but give love to you
I’m just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that’s not me
Go ‘head, keep the keys, that’s not what I need from you
You think that you know (I do), you’ve made yourself cold (Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I’m your girl
You’re out of control (So what?), how could you let go (Oh yeah)
Don’t you know I’m not attached to material

I’d give it all up but I’m takin’ back my love
I’m takin’ back my love, I’m takin’ back my love
I’ve given you too much but I’m takin’ back my love
I’m takin’ back my love, my love, my love, my love

I WANNA BREAK FREE!!

2010-02-06T11:48:00.000-08:00

CRAP!!!
how come no1 knw tat we had d 9pm-11pm free coffee day..
i jus grind a new batch of C.O.D..(which wen i came in @ 5pm left wit 0)
den wen 9pm came...alarmerk...
people come to redeem coffee...WHAT!!?!!

i have to look the coupon many tym to confirm...
ADOI!! kepala saket sak!!!
leg lyke jelly...

OK..
btw..
im so ready lar to move on...
thers too much of talking...
n these people dun hv d guts to b truthful...
FUNNY ryte??
wanna b a bitch, but wanna b nice at d same tym..
Y cant they c themselves ryte thru that they arent perfect either..

i jus sick n tired tryin to be the way they wan me to b,
since they cnt accept d way i am...

SO IM BACK TO B HU I AM..
A BITCH..
lyk it or not...
i dun nid u @ all..
GET MA MSG RYTE HERE???
NO??
get a life n go fly kite lar!!!

aniway..
congrats SALLEH n FAIDZA..
on ur engagement day..

LASTLY..
BABY, EVEN MA DAY IS DOWN U NVR FAIL TO PUT ME UP...
MUACKS.. LUP LUP!!

bitch it up!!

2010-02-05T10:09:00.000-08:00

GOSH... i jus cnt wait...
im at d point where i jus wanna leave oready..
made up my mind...
too much of controversy n people jus dun look @ themselves..
ok...ok...

GREEN-EYED... RED-EYED...
**grossed!! im fed-up wit theses crap...**

i think i cud do better den to hang out with immature..
childish act pissed me off...

wen music starts...we girls gone wild

2010-02-04T07:36:00.000-08:00

oh well... after so long.. we girls are back on d podium...
hehehehe.. i miss d old tym thou but... lilly n i r too old fer this..
so once awhile is ok lar...
lilly cant stop complaining that she got backache..but once her BAD ROMANCE was played... she jump n dance lyk no1 cares...
hahaha...
i rilly hope ther b another day...but tat day will be not soon but not too long either...maybe in a month or two tym...

ok.. thanks to bby ma lappy is up again...
heloo lappy n i dun nid iphone..
so im jus a happy sexy "FAT" gal hu got love from her boyfie...
hehehe love love love

me??? nt u

2010-01-26T03:59:00.000-08:00

hahaha....
i've been feelin a lil weird lately...
it seems like things isnt ryte
well...seems like a bug is following me..
n kippin track of ma duin...

wat d fuck...

I FEEL FUCK UP THOU...
why cant u back off...
get a life...

im loving maself more each day...
BOYFIE, harizBONCIT n ma kuzie gimme strenght to move on in life...

jus wondering wat to do to make things go ryte...
wonder wat to do so i cud smile more...

ITS UNPREDICTABLE FER NOW!!

GOSSIP GIRLS...

2010-01-26T02:44:00.000-08:00

SINCE... ma grp of galfren all been busy with their lifes..
i lead ma life in a diffrent ways..

got a new grp of people i cud share evrything with..

boncit...
we always spend late nite texting n talking over some drinks..
we gossips n shares alot of thots ...

ma lil kuzzie..
we GOSSIPS n exchange comments on others..

i miss ma galfren thou... HAIZ

MyHotComments

break ya heart..

2010-01-16T06:08:00.000-08:00

Now listen to me baby
Before i love and leave you
They call me heart breaker
I don't wanna decieve you

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'mma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart

Now listen to me baby
Before i love and leave you
They call me heart breaker
I don't wanna decieve you

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'mma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart

Woah woah

Theres not point trying to hide it
No point trying to erase me
I know i got a problem
By doing this behavour

If you fall for me
I'm not easy to please
I'mma tear you apart
Told you from the start, baby from the start.

I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart.

I CANT BELIEVE IT...

2010-01-10T12:33:00.000-08:00

A NEW POST...
1stly...
which i hv to put it on post!!
wat a bitch!!!
does all the guys all over singapore knows her???
hu is she??
**dia nik kai bende ah!!**
i guess so....
its seems like all ma guy fren knew her...
like wat??she giving pussy fer free??
WAKAKAKA!!!!
she still owe me n boyfie money..
n yes i still ought to let her go!!
its nt that easy bitch!!!

watever la fucking biatch!!!

oklar...
put that bitch aside..
here goes!!

i was goin thru ma old blogg..
n found out few old post..
i duno lar..but i was in n out of love..

im glad i n boyfie met up again!!!
it feels like a movie show...
L.Z once say...
""wah u two ah!! like drama siak!! got many parts, never ending story lor!!""
hahah

true!!
coming 6month..
our up n down..
but love blooms thou..
we laugh more often den we quarrel...
wenever i frown...
kisses flewby...
wenever i cry..
hugs around..

i hv always dreamt of this...
cant believe its happening..
i love ma baby..

ouh well....
enuf of the love birds story..

all i can say..
year 2010..
d year i waited fer..

i decided to b the calm gal fer now...
**(which i blasted already @ dbl o)**
i decided that new year is the year fer the new syidah!!

TO ALL:
IM SORRIE FER ALL THE WRONG THING I'VE DONE...

lastly:
im hoping fer 10/10/10...
baby pls !!!

oh well....

2009-12-12T09:02:00.000-08:00

im happy now...n i cant deny it at all...
i believe i wont leave him no more...
n thanks to the jerks... **no nid fer names**
i believe i have realise that no one beats ma boyfie....

anyway...
some bitches jus cant change their way..
well once a bitch always a bitch...

same goes to jerks...

well,
til today no one prove me that bdk2 cutting is gud..
n now.. someone yet instead of proving me wrong,
he prove me ryte...
y cant sumone prove me that their cuttin is jus about gathering n frens...
not fooling with gals,showing their machine n etc....
oh well...
life isnt all puurrffeect!!!!!

today read up ma facebook n atlast its updated!!!
weeeee......

appy is against pple hu suke bual world....
oh well tell tell me bout it...
but shant go into ther...

ok..
i miss ma galfren...
but i think she forget about me oredy...
haish...

close ma blog fer now...
LOVE MA BABY....
LOVE MA BIKEY.....
LOVE MA SELF!!!

a new life i wanted...

2009-10-13T09:30:00.000-07:00

I WANT MOM TO BE STRONG N GET THE HOUSE SOLD SOON...

I WANT DAD TO SUFFER...

I JUS WANT TO GET RID OF MA PAST....
why cant i???

23 bday

2009-10-12T06:50:00.000-07:00

it was a boring start fer mi...
well 1st day bike riding to werk...
scary shitt,all car was so nasty to mi... (FUCKING DRIVERS!!)
well...
had to stay @ werk frm 10am-11pm... n ma bthday was gonna b over!!!
shuck...
well,bby decided to bring me out to mit janna n muis fer a drink...
dint i expect...
cakes n 12 shooters.... woah!!!
memorable bthday!!

the people hu make ma bday happen!!i wish that we b lasting!!

LASTLY.... I MISS MA GALFREN....

NURLIYANA BTE ROSLAN!!!

.....entry

2009-09-28T04:26:00.000-07:00

as love loving us...

i remember...

i was jus a lil gal hu is not afraid of duin anything..

not afraid to fall in love...

not afraid of gettin hurt or hurting others..

but now...

every lil feeling that make me think i'll lose him,

hurt... im jus afraid...

i wonder....

well...

loving sumone is wen u r able to open up to the person..

n like wise,acceptin n understand 1 another..

im glad it did fer us...

ok...

werk was like ok lar...

but as fer today..we do washing2...

adoi...

den it feel sucky awhile wen politics startin to show...

oh well... me n nalita cnt b bothered no mo...

i does feel sucky u knw...

ok...

bike already been book n pay,d dwnpayment

but still waiting fer paperwerk to b done...

i hope it b done soon.,,

i pray n hope..

ok..

im missing sb-jp..

i wan to go bck ther...but hopefully nxt mth...

i hope...

ok...

so many ok..

i end here...

bye!!

updatin it!!!

2009-09-27T07:05:00.000-07:00

1stly...

THANKIU RYAN...

for lettin mi use this lappy...

today makcik lynn last day...

alahai sedih sey...

but wishing u good luck...

gonna miss ur nagging...hahaha...

ok... update atlast...

lorry outing.. check out facebook pics.....

ok..ok...

nxt outing wit sb-jp is 8th..raya...

wee....

yesh ah...

a day we start afresh...

2009-09-25T07:13:00.000-07:00

shout out!!!
PASS MA LICENSE finally...

bby hv helped mi with the bike..
n i hv sort out our financial.. good..
i love ma bby...

we r duin so well...
love!!

love

2009-09-12T11:27:00.000-07:00

**DATE: 17 SEPTEMBER 2009
**DAY: THURSDAY
**TIME: 1AM
**VENUE: JRG POINT STARBUCK
**TO WHOM: SB JP CURRENT N EX PARTNER+THEIR OTHER HALF
**EVENT: GEYLANG TRIP!! JALAN2

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY!!

love u many many!!!

hush hush

2009-09-12T11:05:00.000-07:00

I never needed you to be strong

I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs

i never needed pain,i never needed strenght

My love for you was strong enough you should've known.

I never needed you for judgement

I never needed you to question what i spent

I never ask for help,

I take care of myself,

I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.

And it's a little late for conversations

There isn't anything that you can do.

And my eyes hurt,

hands shiver,

so look at me ,

listen to me because,

I don't want to

Stay another minute

I don't want you

To say a single word

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

There is no other way

I get the final say

Because

I don't want to

Do this any longer

I don't want you

There's nothing left to say

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken'

Our love is broken

Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections

On everything from how i act to what i say

i never needed words,

i never needed hurt,

i never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way i let go

Of everything i wanted when you came along

But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated

I know next to you is not where i belong

And it's a little late for explanations

There isn't anything that you can do

And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

I don't want to

Stay another minute

I don't want you

To say a single word

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

There is no other way I get the final say

BecauseI don't want to

Do this any longerI don't want you

There's nothing left to say

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken
Our love is broken

Baby Hush Hush

No more words

No more lies

No more crying ooh ooh

No more pain

No more hurt

No more tryin' Oh Oh Yeah

BecauseI don't want to

Stay another minute

I don't want you

To say a single word

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

There is no other way I get the final say

BecauseI don't want to

Do this any longer

I don't want you

There's nothing left to say

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken

Our love is broken

Baby Hush HushYeah Oh

Hush Hush, Hush Hush

I've already spoken

Our love is broken

Baby

random

2009-09-06T10:16:00.000-07:00

"Y DO PEOPLE CHG WEN THEY FOUND THE OTHER HALF OF THEM?"
"Y DO PEOPLE FORGET U WEN THEY R HAPPY?"
jus random checks...
although im glad i've found wat i want..
i feel apart frm the real thing...
i feel shuck!!

2009-08-25T22:42:00.000-07:00

time fer mi to update...
ok.. mi been bz...
im struggling thou...
im wit java village now duin part tym cashier..
n im back duin starbucks this sat...
yet again,got ma new job..a full tym job..
start 1st sept..
adoii....
*pening pening*

ok ok...
puase...
everyone talkin bout fasting month..
yet again... its jus 5day of fasting...
i feel tired...
well...duno wen can i do buke wit ma frens...
im so missin alot n thers alot of catching to do...
e.g:
im missing the day i n ma secondary skool boys used to go buke @ geylang...
mi n nana wit asra....
haish!!!!!

WAIT!!!
HERE"S A SHOUTOUT TO MA GALFREN>>>
MIT MI SOON LAR...I DUN CARE!!!
(",)

well here goes...
the moment of truth...
maybe im a lil too sensative...
tat wen people have problem,i'll try to help..
den wen it settled...
im bein pushed asyd...
well its life... haish...

that be it...
im off to werk..
argh!!!! i nid holiday bby!!!

spammer bitch!!

2009-08-17T00:15:00.000-07:00

the life of a spammer...
okok...some people r bz mugging..n some jus bz interrupting other people life...
i think these spammer jus got ntg better to do..
dont dey knw that spamming doesnt hurt deep...
thou its a pain to read..
but the slightest pain dun hurt them deep...
so ya...wats d main problem wit spammer...

i chg ma url..
realising that ma old url was bein spam...
changed a NEW BLOG...
y cant these hatrad cumby ryte infront of ur face???
dun dey have gut???
plain jerks n biatch...

i feel all the blogger hu has spammer...

well..
today entry is jus plain boring...
but jus letting out how i felt...

so i hope these spammer hu feel d hate to the blogger..
i guess get ur guts n show urself...
like duh!!!!

thats all...

i gtg werk...
mommy calling...
wee...........

missing u

2009-08-13T21:55:00.000-07:00

........missing ma galfren so much!!!.....
btw happy bthday to u lilly...

shocking shockin...
met cikgu atiqah yestday...
miss her so much..da anak 1...
n she gain weight like so much... aiyo...
sheesh... hahaha...

ok.. nxt topic....
bby blacken his hair...hahaha...
wonder wen im gonna blacken ma hair???
nah...wait till its long lar...

well.....
some people jus cudnt shut their bloody mouth ya...
bullshit sia!!! cannot see other people happy....
n some jus plain lazy n jus wanna make other do their shit...
well...some people r jus people..hu jus dun deserve respect!!!!

ok... galfren say the show "HANGOVER" was super cool..
n yes..cool...
bby say "FIREBALL" is cool...
but dun mind mi ya...
ma cool show is "MONSTER INC." hahahaha...

wait there's tis show mi watch on dvd...
something abt faggot...
a mly true story of mak nyah!!
n its super sad2... how this people dont wanna be a prostitute...
i think its tym fer sporean to b open minded n accept dis people...
dey r human bein...
dey dun ask to be born as a man but soft n behave like a gal...
afterall..
maria j. is a successful person...
even thou she was born a guy n went fer an op to be a gal...
i gez,she'll be ma mak andam if i marry..
hahaha...

crap2...
mommy bthday coming...
n i think mommy dating sumone...
erm... wait...i dun approved ok!!!
hahaha...

ok gotta bath n get ready fer werk @ mommy plc...

to shasha...
i miss ya n yes i'll come back soon...
wee...

i miss sb-jp like hell!!!!!!!!!!!

its all about.......

2009-08-08T04:00:00.000-07:00

i wish i cud wake up n everyone is able to read ma mind witout me telling...
they wud jus walk away n jus stop bein such a bitch..
such a pain in ma neck...
those people know they r...
sumtym i jus wish i cud jus leave...
den tis people will feel @ease.. n peace...
im jus a troublemaker thou... no..
im jus myself..sumone hu some jus cudnt stand ma looks n attitude...
well..but wat the hack...y mus i be d onli 1 hu has to suck in to u people??
n u cant deal it wit mi!!!
wat the hack... so here's ntg...
im giving u ur space cos im walking away,
wateva u say means ntg already....

i jus met a few old peep i knw a few days bck...
yes i so missing u peep...
n yes thx fer the compliment n yes i hv chg..
but sumtym i miss ma old self... hahaha...

tis entry is jus a random entry...
to jus let out how i feel...
wat matter now..
i know hu to trust n hu not to..
hu is true n hu is not...

ok here one good 1...
i reali didnt know so jus randomli answer to his question..
ma lil'est younger kuzin ask mi this question..
""WHAT DID THE TEACHER SAY TO THE SLOW LEARNING FRENCH FRIES?"
i answer.. catch up... n guess wat??
its correct..but its suppose to be KETCHUP...
lil devil...
so he ask 1 more question to his sista...
kak titi.."WHAT IS MICKEY MOUSE FAVOURITE CAR"
he go ard laughing minnie car...
i was like WHAT IS THIS LIL BOY DUIN???
that joke book rilli attract him like magnet..
gosh... gotta get home soon..
before this lil fella tell mi another joke...

ok la... random entry over...
i love those hu stick wit me all the tyms..
u know hu u r...
muacks!!!

party love

2009-08-08T03:11:00.000-07:00

loving ma galfren.. after so long den to party wit her..
ade2 jek bende2 mepek pat powerhouse...
we cant ferget d videoclip gals la...
dey c too much of clips on youtube i gez,n got ntg better to do..
dey remember d step n every lil week dey dance the step...
super hilarious lar...
its kinda merepek...
wat d hack...small kiddo's la...
u hit on dem not on purpose.. they wil hit u back..
den dey will make a big deal out of it la...
but wat matter...
me n galfren had a GREAT DAY!!!
2 of us is jus like a crowd ady la...
its cool shit ok!!!

as usual peep..
I LOVE MA BOYFIE... MUCH MUCH...
he do things fer me witout me asking him too..
im so loving this guy...
wat can i say... trust n communication make the love go round...

refresh

2009-08-03T10:29:00.000-07:00

refresh...refresh..
jus still cudnt refresh...haha...
im still sick sick.. ick ick.. n so hating this..
i cant go out much...
niwae.. i dunnoe wat i shud do...34days..
fer goodness sake...34days of no werk...
im gotta get a new job before tis 34days of m.c kills mi...
bin trying to mit ma baby galfren...i rili hope she's ok...
well it seems lyk she duin fine...
btw.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZIQ!!! hahaha

my..my..
im crazing fer stitch real bad...

like rili... wish cud change d lilo n stitch to syidah n stitch hahah.,,
i spend another bux on stitch again.. a key chain..
now got daddy stitch,a lil stitch n tiny stitch...weee......
erm...
cough..cough...
3days straight..i had tomyam soup... burnin ma throat sia...

bbdc!!!
im bck!!! took bck wher i left off..
so ya 16sept....
125z...baby..mommy cuming!!!!!!!!
muackzz!!!!!

btw... here lastly...
i love ma boyfie..

i love him much much!!!!!!
eventhou we had 1 big fight dat lay a scar on him...
it made us closer...wee... im loving it...
thanks lily fer ur dearest concern..
witout u,
donoe wher i b... erm...
hee.... wee....
yawn.... slipy ady...
knocking off!!!!

ma love

2009-08-01T23:58:00.000-07:00

34 days of m.c isnt fun..

ohya... im down with fever..

damn...

ma boyfie too...

guess wat....

after 2 yrs n 8mth... i've moved on...

niwae...

im missing galfren lots...

wonder how is she duin...

well, im all new now... n ready to open a new chapter of life!!

a new chapter

2009-06-08T10:00:00.000-07:00

gone wit the old memory...
and has open a new 1...
i now realize tat im dumb after all this while..
1stly...
im still crazing fer ma DC shoe..
still searching fer it...
haha...
well nothing much fer ma 1st entry...
all i can say...
i've got bitten...n im shy...
im afraid ryte now.... n i duno y... haish..
wateva la.... galfren... lets PARTY!!!

p.s: u guys can talk all u wan cos ma skin is rili thick...
n ryte now im taking back ma love as im giving u guys too much..
btw.. aibby...
glad u hv moved on...
i gez...after 2yrs plus..im still surviving!!!
weeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!